Saturday, October 30, 2010
If you haven't heard of Usborn Books, they are awesome! They are geared toward children of all ages and most of them are interactive! Not to mention they are so freaking cute! There is an That's not my... series , which is touchy-feely,that i love that is great for even Xander's age! There is a lot of touchy-feely, flip flap, puzzles,sticker books and stuff that I love for church or waiting at a doctors office!I've been wanting so badly to have a show so I can get books for Xander, because before he came along, I just had to get everything that is pink, princess, fairies... you get the picture. So I need to start making my collection of boy books! I love books, especially these ones! I don't think I've ever have bought any other kids books besides Usborne. My sister-in-law is a Supervisor for Usborne and is going to do a show for me! Whenever she gets new books or catalogs I love to look at them and make a long wish list! I know I'm a geek! It's perfect timing for Christmas. We always get Savannah books for Christmas. I think they are perfect gifts! A lot of their books are great for children with learning delays, autism, and down syndrome! I think they have really helped Savannah a lot! I would love for anyone who can make it, to come to my show! It will be fun, and I'm going to make some yummy food! It's Saturday the 6th at 10:00AM, at my house! If you can't make it or want to look at the books online you can go to her website to browse. I also have a catalog if anyone wants to pre order! I can't wait to see everyone there! Let me know if you can make it!
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Yesterday, I had forgotten about Xander's doctors appointment with the pediatric surgeon, for his anal stoniness, that was today, until around six last night and it was at 11am this morning, so I wouldn't be home in time to get Savannah from the bus. I started freaking out. I thought about just not having her go to school, but it was her Halloween day, where she got to wear her Bell costume to school and do Halloween activities. I didn't want her to miss it. I would feel so bad. Savannah loves any chance she gets to wear her princess dresses! I really didn't want to have someone have to watch her for me. I hate how often I have to ask my friends and family tend her for me. I feel so bad. For about an hour I kept trying to figure out something. I really don't want to be a pain or a burden. I just have way too many appointments that she either can't go to, or it would just be too hard to have her there. Maybe one day I can pay my friends and family back for all that they have done for me.They have their own busy lives and their own children, and yet they take their time out of their day to help me. They are always there for me when I need their help. It means so much to me. I am so blessed.
I finally got the courage ask someone to watch her for me. I text-ed one of my friends and she text me back, "I would love to!" Thank you Stophiann! It meant so much to me, more than you know!
At the pediatric surgeons, he used a size 14 stretcher on Xander. Xander tore again and bled. I tried not to look as I held his pacifier in his mouth with one hand and I held his hand in the other, as he screamed. It is so hard to watch him go through pain, and he has too much of it for a little six month old baby. The doctor is having us move up from a size 10 to a size 12 stretcher once a day until our next appointment with him in December.
When we had gotten home I noticed around Savannah's eye was all red and swollen, as if she had been punched in the eye. I quickly opened her backpack to see what her teacher had said, and sure enough there where two little yellow posit notes on her yellow daily report paper from her teacher. They read(shortened version) "Savannah was upset and fell out of her chair on her face. She was such a trooper. I feel so bad! She cried for only 2 min. or so and then was fine." Her teacher is so nice! It was so nice of her to put it in a kind way,"Savannah was upset." when I'm pretty sure she was mad and started kicking and throwing a tantrum and then fell off her chair. I feel bad for her teacher! LOL. When I told Court about Savannah's eye, he said, "well, she probably deserved it." Luckily, I think Savannah has already forgotten about her poor eye. Hopefully I can convince her to let me get her Bell dress off of her sometime today so I can wash if for Saturday! We'll see how that goes. I'm still trying to figure out how I'm going to fix her hair to look like Bells. Any suggestions? I think I'm going to dress up like a pirate, by just throwing some stuff together.
Saturday, October 23, 2010
Thursday, October 21, 2010
We all brought snacks that started with the letter "P"! One of the girls made the yummiest pizza bites ever filled with cheese! I couldn't stop eating them!
The girls being silly!
We wore things that started with the letter"P"! These are the girls pink and purple socks and slippers! Aren't they cute!
Pink and purple nail polish!
I decided to experiment and make Orange, Strawberry, banana crystal light with sliced strawberries in it. It was awesome!
I made Pink and purple pom poms! It took a couple tries to get them right, but once I figured it out they were pretty easy to make.
A lot of us had pig tails and pajamas on! We watched A Little Princess(one of my favorite movies) I really love the message it gives. One of my favorite quotes from the movie is "I am a princess. All girls are. Even if they live in tiny old attics. Even if they dress in rags, even if they aren't pretty, or smart, or young. They're still princesses. All of us." We also went over with each girl how they're doing with their personal progress and made goals.
I found these really pretty pink pearl sprinkles! I really love them!
I made peanut butter rice crispy treats. They are so good!
We had POP Chips and Reeses Pieces and lots more yummy snacks!
Monday, October 18, 2010
Sunday, October 17, 2010
"This is a simple but critical lesson to learn. It may seem logical when put in terms of trees or turbulence, but it’s surprising how easy it is to ignore this lesson when it comes to applying these principles in our own daily lives. When stress levels rise, when distress appears, when tragedy strikes, too often we attempt to keep up the same frantic pace or even accelerate, thinking somehow that the more rushed our pace, the better off we will be.
One of the characteristics of modern life seems to be that we are moving at an ever-increasing rate, regardless of turbulence or obstacles.
Let’s be honest; it’s rather easy to be busy. We all can think up a list of tasks that will overwhelm our schedules. Some might even think that their self-worth depends on the length of their to-do list. They flood the open spaces in their time with lists of meetings and minutia—even during times of stress and fatigue. Because they unnecessarily complicate their lives, they often feel increased frustration, diminished joy, and too little sense of meaning in their lives.
It is said that any virtue when taken to an extreme can become a vice. Overscheduling our days would certainly qualify for this. There comes a point where milestones can become millstones and ambitions, albatrosses around our necks."-President UchtdorfI realized that I've been overwhelming myself and keeping myself busy doing projects, going places, going to appointment after appointment. I've been trying to keep myself busy so I don't have to think about it, because when I read or hear about a sick child or a child with a disability, watch a movie and someone is going blind, a child dying, a family suffering from a loss I just can't stop my emotions and It overwhelms me and I just can't stop crying. I've even had to leave class one lesson after sacrament. When I stop I just can't help, but dwell on my fears of losing Xander.When I left the Hospital the last time as soon as I had gotten into my car to leave I started crying, thinking that this place, this scary place where, I have to feel the fear of losing my children every time they have a surgery,feeling the helplessness that it is out of my hands, this could be the last place that I see my Xander. I go in for test, and watching Savannah or Xander screaming out of pain or fear, not being able to help them, because this is the only way of getting answers, most of the time by myself, not knowing what they are going to be telling me. It might be where I have the last movement where I look into his big brown eyes, so full of life and then watch them dim and fade. I suddenly felt hatred for that place. Not for the doctors or nurses, but for that place full of fear and pain. I know that everything might be just fine and he'll have his surgeries and recover, but the reality of him being just so close of him leaving us scares me so much. Savannah is just starting to notice him. She gives him hugs and kisses. We've watched him fight for his little life and we've watched him grow strong and he's just starting to show his personality. How would I able to watch as other mothers play with their little ones and watch them crawl, walk, and talk if I lose him before I get to see him do all of those things. How would I be able to go on with a part of me gone? I know that I shouldn't be thinking of these things, but I am just so afraid of not knowing. I feel like I have to prepare myself for everything, but I just don't know when? where? will he? why? How? I just know that I am just so grateful for the gospel and for my family. They are the most important things in my life.
I need to try and let the fear go and stop and smell the flowers. I need to embrace every minute with my husband and my children. I need to take pictures and remember the good moments, the ones that really matter.
Friday, October 15, 2010
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Savannah walking into the temple grounds. It is so beautiful and peaceful.
There were so many butterfly's!
This is the "number one buffet in Kewitt," also the only restraint that we found to eat at. It was very different. We spent the night up by Nauvoo. When we got to the hotel I got Xander out of his car seat. He was soaked up his back, and it wasn't spit up. YUCK! It was so gorse! I gave him a bath and took off the car seat to get it cleaned in the washer downstairs. It was like water. The next morning we tried forever to figure out how to put the car seat back together. Just when we were about to give up Kim and I took it over to WalMart to see if we could just look at theirs and figure it out. A lady who worked there saved the day and put it together for us. She must of thought we were crazy. What were we suppose to do? Not put him in his car seat?
The Nauvoo Temple
My favorite store in Nauvoo. The bakery!
Savannah and grandma Jensen
We went on a wagon ride in Nauvoo. At one point Savannah tried to climb out. Later she had a small tantrum and threw her headband out of the wagon and we had to drive back later to find it.
I wanted to get Savannah, Xander and me in this picture with the Daughter, mother and baby, because I remember when I was a girl, for a ward thing or something the release society posed as the statures. My mom, my brother Caleb and I posed as this one. Well, with Savannah it didn't go so well. What was I thinking...
She's in the picture!
Me, trying to catch her...
Savannah decided she was going to sit down and find little tiny rocks and ignore us.
I got to spend some time with my friend Meagan. We've been friends since Kindergarten. She took me out to dinner one night at this really yummy Japanese place. I got to see her cute new house! One afternoon we went to do fittings for bridesmaid dresses for her wedding next fall. It was really fun to see her sister and Darcie, who I haven't seen in forever. Luckily, I have until January to find a dress with sleeves, or make them. The morning before we left Missouri She and her fiancee had me and the kids over for breakfast. She made yummy fruit parfait, cobbler type things! They were so good!
My mom got Savannah princess shoes. Savannah loves them!
Poor Savannah, If only Cinderella had wide feet. Whenever she walks in the shoes I hurt for her, but, she wants so badly to wear them. "Beauty is pain."
Savannah and her cousin Katie have so much fun together! Savannah won't let adults hold her hand but she will for other kids. Too bad Katie couldn't have gone everywhere with us.
Savannah would of loved to of just played with Katie the whole trip!
We went to a Pumpkin patch on Friday with my sister-in-law Kristy and her kids! They had so much fun!
We went on a hay ride!
This is at Liberty Jail.
This is Far West again.
This is Adam-ondi-aumen. It was very beautiful. Savannah loved plying with the rocks.
And on the rocks...
This is one of her meltdowns in the car. It was a fun trip and I'm glad that I got to seem my family and friends and all of the church sites. Over all Savannah and Xander did amazing. And we made it back off the plane. I almost felt like kissing the ground when I got off. No more planes for me for a while!