Today was just one of those days... I got up hoping to get into the  shower before the kids woke up,but as soon as I had gotten out of bed  Xander starts crying. I feed Xander and then Savannah wakes up and we  have to do her routine. She brings her pillow, baby, and pink blanket  out, I get her some milk. She lays on the couch and drinks it while  watching Monsters Inc., her movie for the week. She always picks a movie  that she likes and is obsessed with it for a week to a month. That's  the only movie she'll watch. I get her dressed and then do her hair  while she sits on her pink blanket and watches her movie and drinks her  water, then she has to go look at herself in the mirror. All she wants  for breakfast is a banana. I wash the dishes in the sink, and clean the  living room, Savannah's room, and make our bed. You'd never believe it  at the end of the day.Xander starts crying again and he has a bowl  moment. While I'm changing his diaper he is screaming and goes again in  the clean diaper that I haven't yet finished putting on him and he also  pees. I quickly throw a wipe over him, so it doesn't go anywhere.Luckily  he was on a blanket that I can wash. I get him cleaned up and new  clothes, then he starts screaming and using all his muscles ,standing up  stiff as can be goes again, so I wait for a bit to let him go more if  he needs to. Then, I change that one, then he does it one last time. We  went through four diapers in just 15 minutes. Now hes happy! I then try  to get him to go back to sleep so I can go shower, but he wont let me  put him down or he wakes up crying again, oh and did I tell you he has  to have me stand up too. He is such a needy little boy, but he's so  cute! After about an hour and a half of this he finally goes to sleep,  so I put him in his crib and go take a shower. Then after about 8  minutes Savannah comes into the bathroom crying because she wants me.  She stays in the bathroom crying until I turn the water off, then she  opens the cupboard under the sink. After I dry off and put my towl on in  the shower I find Savannah had found something fun to play with. She  had opened a new box of tampons and threw them all over the bathroom.  She is known for making really big messes in a short amount of time.A  couple months ago one night I had woke up to Savannah crying. I went in  her room walking into a pile of white a foot tall all around her bed. I  had just gotten a box of baby wipes at Costco and put it next to her  crib not even thinking that she would do that. After the bathroom  incident I get dressed, clean up her mess, and do my hair. Xander wakes  up crying. He wants me to hold him of course, then I go into the kitchen  and can't believe it's already noon, so I make Savannah her peanut  butter sandwich and apple sauce and give her a small spoon of peanut  butter( which she has to have every day for lunch). I  clean up the  living room again, vacuum the house and feed Xander.Then Court calls to  tell me he's coming home for lunch, so I try to start making a pasta  salad. Xander keeps crying because he wants to be held. I finally get it  done, then we eat lunch while Savannah sits on daddy's lap picking out  his pasta, then she does something amazing. She eats an olive and a  mushroom! I'm never gotten her to eat an olive and not spit it out. That  was exciting for us!We put her down for a nap going through her routine  and making sure she has everything in her crib that she feels she has  to have to sleep, her yellow swimming noodle, her green chair on her  side of her bed, her baby, her pillow, pink blanket, book, felt  butterfly s, foam ABC's, her music on, and her milk. After Court leaves I  make my phone calls for appointments, A meeting with Savannah's  teacher, meeting for Savannah's a valuation for Autism, a meeting with  kids on the move for a new program called Bridges for Savannah, and  Savannah's follow up appointment examination for her tubes.
I go over  my Young Womens lesson again to figure out how I'm going to do it and  read a story in the manual about a little girl with a mental disability.   One day an apostle had come to her house and he said that she was so  special in Gods eyes, and she was sent to earth for her mortal body in  such a way that she cannot be tempted by this world, and she will return  to God as pure as she came. He said that her parents had chosen to take  care of this special spirit. These special children hold hands with  god. This story touched me so much. I couldn't help but cry as I thought  of my two beautiful children. If you would like to read this story I've  posted it blow this post. This lesson, The "Importance of Life, lesson  32 Manual 2" has really touched my life. I feel like it was written just  for me. Like it is Heavenly father knowing what I need to hear. I hope I  can make it through this lesson on Sunday with crying through all of  it.
I wake Savannah up and redo her go through her nap routine, then  redo her hair. Her bus driver comes over at three for a meeting with me  so I can meet her and do some paper work. I feel a lot better about  letting her go to preschool on the bus now. It's so scary letting my  daughter go with other people I don't know very well. I hope I can hold  myself together her first day. I'm dreading it.
This post is so familiar to me. Making appointments, the nerves about preschool, following the daily routines, cleaning up several times a day only to have it undone again....
ReplyDeleteI have been meaning to ask you if the Bridges program was going to work for you. I would love to hear more about it.
Thank you so much for posting the story about the child with special needs. I had heard about it before, but never new where to find it. It is an answer to a pray that you posted it here.
Thank you so much!
Sounds like my life.... minus the appointment stuff! I feel the same way most days- overwhelmed. I know you have more on your plate, I am sure it will get easier once Xander is a little older. It did for me. Let me know if you need any help. Even if it is just to run to the grocery store for you and bring it over or sit with them while you run somewhere or bring dinner or whatever. REally, if you are feeling overwhelmed, don't hesitate to reach out.
ReplyDeleteP.S. Can't wait to hear the lesson