Xander's Kidney Surgery Tomorrow

Tomorrow morning at 6 Xander is having his surgery on his Kidneys, (VUR). That means that we have to get up a t 4 tomorrow! And, I thought 4:30 was early! My mother-in-law is going to watch Savannah for us tomorrow so that we won't have to worry about her and she can go to school. She loves spending time with Grandma love!

I have been feeling so many emotions about it this week.
One of the biggest ones is that I am afraid, afraid of all of the unspeakable things that could happen to him. In fact, as it draws closer I am becoming terrified!I've tried not to think about it too much because I just knew that this would happen. Now, I'm just crying and I feel stupid for crying, because I know that he has to be okay. It's so hard to stop thinking about it.I just have to be brave and hold it together for him.

I am very hopeful that he will be fine after this surgery. He is a very strong and determined little boy!I am so grateful that God intrusted him to us.I know that we are always telling him that he is lucky that he is cute, whenever he gets into trouble( which is a lot! )But, the truth is that we love him unconditionally. He teaches us Patience and brings us joy in this crazy world!I love that I can see how much he loves his sister, and that he has no fear, well except for sleeping in his bed and that his mommy would leave him for any period of time. LOL! I love that he is a mommy's boy and I love it when he blows me kisses!He has such a sweet spirit! Even when he is angry he is adorable!

Well, I'll probably post some pictures tomorrow on Facebook and my blog. Thank you so much all of my family and friends for your kind thoughts and prayers!