Yesterday, I had forgotten about Xander's doctors appointment with the pediatric surgeon, for his anal stoniness, that was today, until around six last night and it was at 11am this morning, so I wouldn't be home in time to get Savannah from the bus. I started freaking out. I thought about just not having her go to school, but it was her Halloween day, where she got to wear her Bell costume to school and do Halloween activities. I didn't want her to miss it. I would feel so bad. Savannah loves any chance she gets to wear her princess dresses! I really didn't want to have someone have to watch her for me. I hate how often I have to ask my friends and family tend her for me. I feel so bad. For about an hour I kept trying to figure out something. I really don't want to be a pain or a burden. I just have way too many appointments that she either can't go to, or it would just be too hard to have her there. Maybe one day I can pay my friends and family back for all that they have done for me.They have their own busy lives and their own children, and yet they take their time out of their day to help me. They are always there for me when I need their help. It means so much to me. I am so blessed.
I finally got the courage ask someone to watch her for me. I text-ed one of my friends and she text me back, "I would love to!" Thank you Stophiann! It meant so much to me, more than you know!
At the pediatric surgeons, he used a size 14 stretcher on Xander. Xander tore again and bled. I tried not to look as I held his pacifier in his mouth with one hand and I held his hand in the other, as he screamed. It is so hard to watch him go through pain, and he has too much of it for a little six month old baby. The doctor is having us move up from a size 10 to a size 12 stretcher once a day until our next appointment with him in December.
When we had gotten home I noticed around Savannah's eye was all red and swollen, as if she had been punched in the eye. I quickly opened her backpack to see what her teacher had said, and sure enough there where two little yellow posit notes on her yellow daily report paper from her teacher. They read(shortened version) "Savannah was upset and fell out of her chair on her face. She was such a trooper. I feel so bad! She cried for only 2 min. or so and then was fine." Her teacher is so nice! It was so nice of her to put it in a kind way,"Savannah was upset." when I'm pretty sure she was mad and started kicking and throwing a tantrum and then fell off her chair. I feel bad for her teacher! LOL. When I told Court about Savannah's eye, he said, "well, she probably deserved it." Luckily, I think Savannah has already forgotten about her poor eye. Hopefully I can convince her to let me get her Bell dress off of her sometime today so I can wash if for Saturday! We'll see how that goes. I'm still trying to figure out how I'm going to fix her hair to look like Bells. Any suggestions? I think I'm going to dress up like a pirate, by just throwing some stuff together.